Sunday, August 26, 2012

{33 weeks} Durian???

According to The Bump, Baby Hoff weighs about 4.2 to 5.8 pounds and measures about 17.2 to 18.7 inches.  Baby Hoff is also the size of a Durian....which I've never heard of or seen in my life!
 
How far along? 33w0d
Total weight gain: 30lbs
Maternity clothes? mixture of both... 
Stretch marks? none that I can tell..but around my belly button looks bruised....so that's a little weird
Sleep: averaging about 4-6 a night
Best moment this week: getting the thinkin' chair back and finished!
Miss Anything? energy, feeling human, and being able to do things myself

Movement: Kicks, hiccups, rolls, jabs, punches, you name it Baby Hoff is probably doing it!
Food cravings:  muffins and any baked goods really...

Anything making you queasy or sick: chicken--let me clarify: chicken breasts--I can eat chicken nuggets, chicken fries, and crispy chicken sandwich....
Gender: We know the gender........
Labor Signs: still having braxton hicks and had a few contractions while working...had to sit and take a quick mental note to try and keep teaching!

Symptoms:MAJOR Sacroiliac Joint pain, MAJOR heartburn, sore legs/knees/feet/ankles, sleepy, braxton hicks.
Belly Button in or out?  flat! however the top has started to pop!
Wedding rings on or off? I try to wear them, but they end up coming off by the end of the day (especially at school when my room is 90+ degrees!)
Happy or Moody most of the time: happy--but apparently moody (see How are you feeling? below)
Looking forward to: getting everything done so I feel somewhat prepared at work and home for Baby Hoff

How are you feeling?  Tired. Sore. Swollen. Hot.  Anxious. Unprepared (but we are....minus the carseat!!).  I'm just not loving the unknown.  When will this little baby make it's debut?? We literally have 49 days until the official due date....is this baby going to take after my mom's births and my sister's and come early??  The doc tells me there is no correlation--but I think that is only half true.  How am I going to time contractions and teach at the same time?! I'm secretly hoping I "pee my pants" so that I know when I need to leave work!  After having three contractions the other day while trying to teach, it's going to be beastly hard to keep focused on both!  GAH!

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I'm also feeling frustrated--VERY FRUSTRATED.  MANY people keep telling Chad or I that "Gosh you're going to have to have a C-section because you are just too small to push that baby out." Daily. In one form or another this is said to one of us.  Why must people doubt me?  Yes, I am petite.  Do you all see me on a daily basis? No.  Do you all realize that yes I am small, but my body shape has changed dramatically?!  Do you not see how far my hips have spread when looking at my weekly photos?  Even if they hadn't spread as much as they have, there are MANY women who are smaller and more petite than I am that have been able to have a regular vaginal birth.  So, those who doubt me and my ability, thanks for setting me up for feeling like a failure if in fact this baby just doesn't want to descend into the birth canal or for some other reason and I have to have a C-section because it's what's best for the baby.  For those of you who have been nothing but supportive--thank you for believing in me and giving me the strength I will need to go through this life changing experience.
I've also gotten a glimpse into the October future....trying to make sure someone is available to watch the baby while I go in to work to help with the fall and winter party (because not many parents have volunteered), test my kiddos for report cards (because I have to fill in the report cards--I'd rather be the one testing so I know it's accurate information), and go in for parent teacher conferences (so I can get comped for those days instead of having to pay the sub) might just be a bit of a nightmare come October.  

Next Appointment: August 29
Chad's amusement of this week: getting Baby Hoff to move with his voice and realizing that sweeping and mopping the floors is a pretty big task that isn't fun (this is MAYBE the second time he's done this)--I know he appreciates when I clean the house--but I honestly think he has always thought it's not that big of a job (until now! because he's had to clean the bathroom and do the floors the last week or two).  

Here's the weekly pictures   =) 


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Am I loving the forward facing picture? No. But I'm "keeping it real" and honest on here so that I can remember these memories and not forget the truth (since no one told me half the stuff that really goes on when you are pregnant....if only I would let you read my journal---you'd learn all the gory details!).  I don't love how my face has changed.  I don't mind the other parts that have changed, but I don't love the fuller face.  And I'm allowed to feel that way.

Saturday, August 25, 2012

Thinkin' Chair Love

When my mom passed away in 2004 there was only one of her personal belongings that I REALLY wanted: her rocker.  I have MANY memories of her sitting in this chair.  I was lucky enough to be able to receive it when she passed and have spent a lot of time thinking and pondering about life while sitting in it.  Since getting the chair it has been my go-to spot to sit....it helps me cope with things, think about things, and just remember.  

This chair is old--A. Barb tells me it sat in her mom's room =)  I knew it was something that I would want to get fixed up sometime.  When Chad and I found out we were expecting and looked at some rockers and recliners to use in the nursery, nothing really stood out.  I figured it was time to fix up my thinkin' chair.  

This chair has many special memories for me and now it will have many more as we transition it into the nursery.  I could not be happier with how it turned out.  We hired someone to refinish it and our friend graciously reupholstered it for us as a baby shower gift.  They both did an amazing job and have brought new life to the chair.  I cannot wait to snuggle, rock, read, and feed Baby Hoff in this chair.  So many more amazing memories are about to be made.


Monday, August 20, 2012

reality??

I've just spent the last hour working on things for school (pulling up pages I need to print/copy, making name writing/building activities, etc) to try and stay awake until Chad gets home.  It's 7:30 p.m. my time ladies and gentlemen.  This is not a good sign of things to come.....

I was out the door by 7:15 this a.m. for the back-to-school kick off meeting and Chad threw a roast and some veggies in the crock pot as I was leaving.  He had to stay late at work because of some random internet issue so I've already eaten dinner (the roast was good by the way).  

It's not the fact that I was up early I don't think.  I'm pretty sure the two hours greeting families is the cause of my severe exhaustion this evening.  This can't be good!! I only had to meet and greet for maybe two hours...maybe a little more.  Did it help that my classroom (along with everyone else classroom) was a sweltering temperature? No, probably not.  I did pop down to the office right after my room cleared out to soak up some of the lovely a/c that is in there =)  I even had a diet Pepsi and that did NOTHING for me...except make me want another can!   

I'm pretty sure I might just be snoring in bed by 6 p.m. on Wednesday (first day of school)!!  My body will hopefully get used to this....I've got roughly 6-8 weeks to get through!!

{week 32} Squash!

According to The Bump, Baby Hoff is still growing! Baby Hoff baby weighs in at about 2.5 to 3.8 pounds and measures about 15.2 to 16.7 inches. 
How far along? 32w1d
Total weight gain: 30lbs
Maternity clothes? mixture of both... 
Stretch marks? none that I can tell..but around my belly button looks bruised....so that's a little weird
Sleep: averaging about 4-6 a night
Best moment this week: Feeling like it's all going to be okay....(regarding breast feeding.... but I'm sure in a few days I'll be back to worrying about if I can do it/handle it/manage)
Miss Anything? energy, feeling human, and being able to do things myself

Movement: Kicks, hiccups, rolls, jabs, punches, you name it Baby Hoff is probably doing it!
Food cravings:  muffins and any baked goods really...

Anything making you queasy or sick: chicken
Gender: We know the gender........
Labor Signs: still having braxton hicks...no REAL contractions this week! YAH!
Symptoms:MAJOR Sacroiliac Joint pain, MAJOR heartburn, sore legs/knees/feet/ankles, sleepy, braxton hicks.
Belly Button in or out?  flat! slowly becoming an outie!
Wedding rings on or off? I took them off....I try to wear one but then my fingers swell and I have a hard time taking it off!
Happy or Moody most of the time: happy
Looking forward to: starting {work} school.  It's going to make time FLY! Before we know it Baby Hoff will be here! Monday is open house so I'm hoping to see all of my new and old families!

How are you feeling?  Tired.  I've been doing A LOT non-stop the last week and a half.  Trying to get ready for {work} school to start and making sure I have everything ready to go that I'm going to need that first week has been crazy!  I'm beating myself up about maternity leave...I know I really shouldn't be, but it's hard to decide how much time I "want" to take off knowing that [my] kinder kiddos are going to be under someone else....I just worry about them and I haven't even met the majority of them (I have a few families from prior years..so I already know a few kinder kiddos!)!!!!  I get all emotional about it.  So no, even I don't know how long I'll be taking off yet...maybe I'll just go for the long haul and come back early if I'm ready....
Next Appointment: August 29
Chad's amusement of this week: birthing class was a good experience for him =)  He told me he knew it was going to be hard, but he couldn't picture how hard...the videos really opened his eyes! 

Here's the weekly pictures   =) 


Sunday, August 12, 2012

{week 31} pineapple

According to The Bump, Baby Hoff is about 15.2 to 16.7 inches long and weighs about 2.5 to 3.8 pounds this month.  Baby Hoff is also the size of a pineapple this week!

How far along? 31w0d
Total weight gain: 28lbs..appt on Thursday will prove this wrong....
Maternity clothes? mixture of both...Some shirts that are maternity...are starting to not fit....same with a few pairs of bottoms...crap.  Pretty sure I might be teaching in Yoga capris until baby Hoff decides to show up =) 
Stretch marks? none that I can tell
Sleep: averaging about 4-6 a night
Best moment this week: getting A LOT accomplished at work
Miss Anything? energy, feeling human, and being able to do things myself

Movement: Lots and a little.  Baby Hoff has been kind of quiet at times since I'm up doing A LOT now.
Food cravings:  muffins

Anything making you queasy or sick: chicken
Gender: We know the gender........
Labor Signs: still having braxton hicks with a few real contractions mixed in...other than that nope.
Symptoms:MAJOR Sacroiliac Joint pain, sore legs/knees/feet/ankles, sleepy, braxton hicks....My joints are feeling a little stiff also. Major heartburn also...
Belly Button in or out?  flat! slowly becoming an outie!
Wedding rings on or off? I took them off....
Happy or Moody most of the time: happy
Looking forward to: picking out the stain color for my mom's rocker!  It's ALMOST done!! I'm so excited to get it back into the house....It's my thinking chair!

How are you feeling?  Very tired and sore.  I've done A LOT in the last 4/5 days at work compared to having to sit on my butt at home.  My heartburn has returned...along with my awesome first trimester acne.  My mood hasn't been as gloomy this past week and I'm chalking that up to being out of the house more =)
Next Appointment: August 16
Chad's amusement of this week:Chad apparently thinks we have MONTHS left to finish things up for baby Hoff...I think he'll be in for a rude awakening SOON.  

Here's the weekly picture   =) 


And one of our fur baby =)


Monday, August 6, 2012

{Week 30} cucumber....

According to The Bump, Baby Hoff is 15.2- to 16.7-inches long and 2.5- to 3.8-pounds.  Apparently the baby is strong enough now to grasp onto someone's finger (I believe that...my stomach hurts from this power house)!
How far along? 30w1d
Total weight gain: 28lbs
Maternity clothes? mixture of both...Some shirts that are maternity...are starting to not fit....same with a few pairs of bottoms...crap.
Stretch marks? none that I can tell
Sleep: averaging about 4-6 a night
Best moment this week: getting a few things done at home and school
Miss Anything? energy and feeling human

Movement: Lots! Baby Hoff has been moving and grooving every hour!
Food cravings:  spaghetti & muffins

Anything making you queasy or sick: chicken
Gender: We know the gender........
Labor Signs: still having braxton hicks with a few real contractions mixed in...other than that nope.
Symptoms:MAJOR Sacroiliac Joint pain, sore legs/knees/feet/ankles, sleepy, braxton hicks....My joints are feeling a little stiff also.  Apparently I look uncomfortable also--Four people have said this to me in the last week...great.
Belly Button in or out?  flat! If I push on it softly it becomes an outie =)
Wedding rings on or off? I took them off....
Happy or Moody most of the time: happy
Looking forward to: getting into my NEW ROOM at school =) I'm set to be moved sometime this week...hopefully Tuesday!

How are you feeling?  TIRED. Between trying to get the house stuff finished up and thinking about my new classroom....I'm beat!  I'm also frustrated.  Frustrated because I can't move stuff.  Moving into a new classroom and I can't rearrange any of my furniture--I have to rely on someone else to do this--FRUSTRATING.
Next Appointment: August 16
Chad's amusement of this week: Laughing at me for too many things to list.  He AGAIN has said to me "You're not going to get much bigger are you?" My reply, "I have two months left, don't ask again."

Here's the weekly pictures   =)